my reality

MY reality: I miss my MJ. But maybe what I really miss is having someone to focus my attention on. Melody Beattie says, “What if you could be feeling anything you wanted right now, and feeling that way wouldn’t make you a bad person. What would you be feeling?” I like this game, and I want to play.

Something inside of me isn’t right, and I don’t know what it is. I don’t feel at peace with myself. I don’t feel like any of me is good enough. My job doesn’t provide me enough money. My friends are not as attentive as I would like them to be. My body doesn’t look like I want it to. My clothes don’t fit comfortably. My appetite is never satisfied. I feel frustrated. I feel like I need help, but I don’t know how to help myself.

I do, however, have an appointment with a counselor/therapist tonight. So I can allow myself to feel realistic hope.